Pariah | Muse

Love and lust, laced with trust

(What a terrifying combination) 

The sensation may be just enough to bring down an entire nation

Let alone my walls… that’s so dangerous…

Unguarded with you, I feel like I can let that veil fall and show you… all of me

Everything 

Even the parts of me that bleed when you squeeze, but I want you to be firm and handle me 

F* “with care”, I’m not fragile and there hasn’t been a battle that I haven’t won yet

But this threesome just may take me down as long as you stay around 

Hmm..

Love, lust and trust…

So binding… so prone to bruise and bust 

But I want that hurt… that’s so scary 

I want every wounding that comes with the grunt work it takes to handle you, too 

That’s so dangerous!

But threesomes do tend to test inhibition and I’ve never had much in the face of a challenge

Danger is my middle name

Love, my first

Lust and trust… 

Just. May. Take. Me. Down.

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Happy Valentine’s Day!

(Especially to the lover girls! I see you… it’s our day. 💗)

I’m sitting at work, wondering how I always finish my favorite poems under pressure. Of course this piece was procrastinated until the day of- that’s so signature. I don’t know if it’ll ever change, and that makes me smile,

I always push the love poems out the fastest.

Honestly, while the spirit of St. Valentine does touch me today through the chocolates my boss got me (God bless her), I’m still feeling a little… off.

I can’t shake the feeling of wanting to be small today. I want to shrink into such a romantic love, that I lose my way out. I want to be held and coddled like no other time I’ve ever wanted before.

But that won’t happen today, and I’ve so bitterly accepted that.

I don’t want to spend the day sitting around salty, though. There’s so much platonic love that I’m grateful for. That’s the love that keeps me going every day. From my family and friends, from random strangers or mentors or acquaintances. From me, girl! I love me some me.

I hope whoever is reading this feels the same, whether you have a Valentine or not. You are the most important person in your world, and today is about giving yourself all the love you can, too. I hope you treat yourself to something nice today, and connect with whatever outside love makes you feel most full.

Wishing a wonderful day to all the lovers! 💗 Talk soon.